So, I wanted to write a post about what I’ve been going through lately. I don’t want sympathy, I just think it’s important to discuss mental health issues.
I’ve been struggling big time over this last year. So much so, that at one point I tried to overdose. I split from my husband, lockdown happened, everything just got on top of me and I spiralled. I’ve had panic attacks, I’ve had days where I don’t get out of bed and I’ve had days where I will just drink until 4 in the morning. I do have good days too and hopefully with lockdown easing, I’ll get more and more of those.
People talk about the deaths from COVID, but there are many more people who have fallen through the cracks because of the restrictions. I’ve been called selfish for venting out against the restrictions, but in that case, aren’t we all selfish for wanting to be healthy?
I get that it’s been tough for a lot of people in various ways, and many of those people will be suffering silently. So I just want to reiterate that it’s important to be kind. You never know how someone may be feeling inside, and the smallest action or throwaway comment can make a big difference to someone’s wellbeing. I’ve certainly taken things to heart a lot more recently that I normally would.
So check up on your friends/family members. I’m lucky that I have people looking out for me, though I have been guilty of keeping things bottled up and not revealing the extent of my feelings. But it’s still nice when someone reaches out. And I myself am making a more conscious effort to check in on people.
Hope you’re all doing well. But if not, anyone is welcome to message me if they’re struggling and want someone/a stranger to talk/vent to x