It’s damn hard to talk about things at the best of times. I’ve read some really brave posts from people on this forum, not just in this thread but lots of different places. Sharing things about themselves that show vulnerability, that throws light on some random internet persona. It takes courage.
The last 2 years have been hella tough. I’ve lost my grandparents and my dad. The weird thing is that my grandparents were the two people who made me safe and secure in the world. They were my parents, they were my everything.
You always think that terrible things happen to other people, that the things you hear and read about won’t ever affect you. You feel that way right up until the point that your life gets turned upside down. When loss hits your doorstep. Then things change.
I’ve never shared really personal things about myself on this forum. But when I looked at this website that I clicked on – one of the words is “community”. And that really hit home. You guys listen and read and empathise and share. Man, it’s a special place.
I feel like shit. I feel lost and abandoned and unmotivated. The folks in life that you think will guide and protect you – they’re not here anymore. So what do you do? Well, you carry on. Because what choice do you have? I’m a very, very happily married man. But losing people disturbs and shakes your world. You feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
But there is. Why? Because there are always folks out there who care, and who listen.
Life is a fucking mystery man, you never know what the fuck will happen tomorrow. You gotta roll with the punches, you gotta appreciate what you have. Life isn’t supposed to make sense. You just have to enjoy the time you have and make the most of it.
I have been a part of this community for almost 12 years. There isn’t another place in the world I’d share this kind of stuff with. I wish all of you the very best in life. You rock, OA.