I hear you bro. I think I’m blessed generically where I don’t need to carry much weight to look bolo. I’ve been dedicated to the gym full time for like 2.5 years now and in that time I’ve never taken more than 3 days off at any one time and I generally go 5-6 days a week. But I’ve always been in the gym as I used to box so even then I was training 3-4 times a week. So it’s kind of always been a fixture in my life. The only time I really fucked up was in the months leading up to when my father passed away where I fell off completely and just ate whatever and didn’t train much. That was a really tough time and I ballooned up to 95kg which, at my height and not even being muscle, was disgusting.
But yeah this past 2-3 months I’ve been enjoying my life more and eating more freely. This week I started dieting extra hard though so I don’t fuck about when I get on my diet. Loads of tuna, brown rice, chicken, plus my morning shake with ground almonds and peanut butter powder. I basically get strict when I diet but I hear you - we all have to enjoy our life and it’s tough sometimes lol